She danced it all, upon the wall, her hair, it swirled around
The boys all laughed and cheered their glass, their boots tapped on the ground
She spun with beer and yelled, "here, here!" The moon began to rise
It was only then, when the band began, I saw sadness in her eyes
Her shadow danced, I took my chance, grabbed her waist and then
The coldest moon, although 'twas June, rose higher when I began
To lead her 'stead and saw with chagrin, her shadow danced instead
of the lovely girl, whose hair did swirl, and it was I who lead
If only she could become free like her shadow upon the wall
And she'd heartily laugh and raise her glass to the realness of it all
"Dear Diary," coming-of-age poetry release date: 9/13/19
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Like a faberge egg. Like a Christmas bulb. Like blown glass.
Toughen up, they say. Get a grip. Drive on.
You think so? Is that the way?
Or should I turn it into a deep compassion? Press into God and allow him to fill every nook and cranny with his Holy Gorilla Glue?
A hardened heart. I longed for it so I could be free.
But, is it freedom?
I think I’ll stick with Fra-Gee-Lay and run after that heavenly reward.
I don’t need to try to make Jesus cool.
First of all, He’s God and Human. Pretty cool. He loves people nobody wants. Also, cool. He’s a miracle worker. Yep, cool. He’s badass. He’s wrath and love all mixed up in one hurricane of divinity and flesh.
Here’s His words that I’m focusing on for August (and it’s a printable for you):
Let’s hang on to these vintage words of Jesus together. Let’s let them sink in your heart. Read this card taken from Luke 6:27-28 today and then read it again tomorrow and the next day and the next. Let me know how it helps others…and how it changes you.
In the words of Freddie Mercury,
"Dahling, I'm doing everything with everybody."
This is just ridiculous.
At least I and several others thought it was.
“You have the world at your fingertips,” she had said with blue eyes that were wicked with celebration, “don’t drop it.”
But, to them, to the world, to her…I dropped it when I followed Jesus.
But, to me, I gained the world. I gained freedom…and I did it by following the bible.
Now I’ve really gone nuts.
I still cry when I hear Freddie Mercury sing, “We are the Champions.” I feel his emotion deep in my bones, but…now that I’m not doing everything with everybody?
Well, I truly am the champion. Will you dare to join me? More to come…
I understand fear. I understand pretending to be someone you’re not. I understand wanting to forget the past and move forward.
But…what if? What if your pain isn’t only for YOU to learn from? What if your pain can prevent others from going down the dark path you know so well?
I’ve been sharing my bad trip story from 21 years ago. Why? Because I am a living story that there is a good God in heaven that cares. He cares about addicts. He cares about rebellious teenagers. He cares about your pain.
When you see me day to day, in my right mind, caring for my children and living a “normal life,” it is consistent evidence that Jesus is alive…but, if I don’t share my story, I just look like another elitist.
Will you share your pain, too? Forget the naysayers. Forget those who may judge you. Focus on those that need the freedom you have.
And…if you don’t have freedom yet? Keep tuning into my story. I think I’ve found the answer…
Last week the first video of, “I Went Crazy on Acid,” entered the YouTube world. On Wednesday several of you joined me live on our FB Page for, “Fear You Don’t Own Me!” We declared together that the proverbial lion was no longer chasing us. Instead we decided to hold onto Isaiah 41:10 together. Have you remembered to say this verse when your heart is pounding, your hands are sweaty and your mind is anxious? To help you overcome, I made you a business card sized printable of “My Personal Isaiah 41:10.” Friends, let’s carry this in our purses, pockets or as a screen shot on our phones to help us overcome any and all irrational fears! That dirty little gnat!
Meet me on YouTube Tuesday, July 9th for Part 2 of, “I Went Crazy on Acid.” Then head over to FB Land for “What’s Up Wednesday?” We’ll continue our series on overcoming fear. If you’re loving the content of “Your Friend, Dawn,” please like, comment, subscribe, or follow on videos, Instagram, dawnsober.org and Facebook. This helps get our message of Jesus’s friendship out to more people.
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“Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds,” was my favorite song in the 7th grade even though it was 1994 and Mariah Carey’s, “Hero,” was #1.
I first heard this classic Beatle’s tune in my mom’s $1,000 car whose muffler blew smoke like a smoke stack when we road through our town.
The slow, hypnotic melody of the verses followed by the pulse quickening drum leading into the chorus enchanted me. I was a sober version of the girl looking into the marmalade sky when my mom burst my bubble, “This song is about drugs, Dawn!”
I thought for sure it was about the innocence of a Pippi Longstocking imagination who grew tangerine trees on balconies for an escape from the sadness. For the little life of me, I could not imagine that those four straight laced looking guys who sang, “I wanna hold your hand” in suits and mop tops would have written a song purely about drugs. Surely, this Lucy lady was an upstanding gal, a daughter of the Queen of England!
I still sang at the top of my lungs even though mom had spelled out that it meant LSD or lysergic acid diethyl-amide. Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds. LSD. Get it? Acid. Drugs. Hallucinogenics.
Little did we all know that when I sang, “Picture yourself on a train in a station with plasticine porters with looking glass ties, suddenly someone is there at the turnstile…” that in just 4 short years, I would become the “girl with kaleidoscope eyes.”
P.S. Check out Your Friend, Dawn on YouTube, Wednesday 7/3/19 for the first of four videos, “I Went Crazy on Acid.”
P.P.P.S. Trigger warning. Drugs are evil. Drugs are bad. This is in no way endorsing any drug use, but serves to warn of the dangers of drug use.